TODAY IS OK

A ROUGH RIDE

I have been on such a roller-coaster of emotions over the past few days. Momentary highs always seem to end in the darkest of lows and some days I have found it impossible to do anything at all.

I am so lost.  So stuck.  Some days the pain is too much.

Chemaine, I love you.x

DIY PRE SHAMPOO - DISASTER!!!

A recipe for disaster.........

  

step 1: Add 2 tbsp of olive oil to the pan and begin to heat

step 2: Mix 3 tsp of honey to the oil and stir together well 

  

step 3:  crush 1 whole banana until pulpy and add to the hot oil and honey

(THIS IS WHERE I WENT WRONG!!! - You must blend the banana until there are no lumps at all!!!)

  

step 4: a few drops of balsamic (or cider) vinegar

step 5:  squeeze in the juice from a generous slice of lemon

  

step 6: continue to mix and heat until you are left with very few lumps  NO LUMPS AT ALL!!

step 7: set the mixture aside and allow to cool

step 8: once it has cooled down, apply the mixture to damp hair for 30-45 mins

I was so excited about this concoction - so much so, that I took photos throughout the process, thinking I was going to be so pleased with the results.

THIS WAS NOT THE CASE.

But at least it took my mind off things for an afternoon....

x

STILL TWISTED

In my previous post, you saw the results of my first attempt at twists and now I'm showing you the results after untwisting them 6 hours later........

Not bad for a first try... right?


Miggy.x

TWIST'N'SHOUT

From birth, right up until I was around 15 years old, my mum spent countless hours plaiting, twisting, hot combing and moisturising my natural hair - just as she had done with both of my sisters before me.  My hair was thick, healthy, big and beautiful but as I got deeper into my rebellious teens, I pleaded to have my hair chemically straightened or permed.  At 15, the chemicals were applied to my long, virgin hair and well... that was the end of that.

But today I'm having a childhood hair flashback.  TWISTS.

It has been nine days since I first chopped off my extensions and relaxed hair and decided to grow out my natural hair.  After conditioning and moisturising it lots over the past few days, I was finally able to completely detangle it all and put it into little twists, like the ones I wore as a child.

It's strange to think that less than 2 weeks ago, the back of my head looked like this...

taken at the Palatine in Rome September2010

I feel completely different.  I'm sure that's partly due to the things I'm dealing with right now but a teeny weeny bit of it must be because of this new/old hair....

I think I'm on the road to really feeling like ME.

x

BED HEAD

On waking up this morning, I was eager to see how my hair had dealt with a pretty unpleasant night of tossing, turning and sweaty nightmares.  As I removed my trust head scarf (which I have slept in for years - lucky boyfriend;) I was presently surprised by what I found.

Of course my mini afro had flattened slightly overnight but a few finger pulls later and I was pretty happy with my new morning hair....

Wildfox playsuit (my favourite pajamas), Ikea bed clothes, new natural hair!!

The journey continues....

Miggy.x

GENESIS

It has been 11 long and painful days since I first heard the news that my eldest sister had committed suicide.  Eleven days and that's the fist time I have been able to say those words... 'committed suicide'.  

Sometimes when terrible things happen, we react in ways which may be seen as odd to others but for the individual it can be the best form of therapy.

My decision to remove my hair extensions came four days after I first received that call from my dear mother and the police woman who was with her.

Perhaps it was symbolic of my desire to start anew, perhaps it was a way of distracting myself from what was happening.... 

As I pulled out the last of my extensions and looked at my lank, unhealthy, chemically relaxed hair that lay underneath, something unexpected happened.  Suddenly I had a pair of scissors in hand and I was cutting away at my actual hair.  I didn't stop until all that was left were my unrelaxed roots.

FREEDOM.

So this is my way of documenting this new chapter in my life and sharing the experience of growing my natural afro hair.

Initially, it was just going to be a YouTube channel, so I recorded the video below a bit earlier .....

See you very soon.

Miggy.x